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I wrote this to show that when you go to party's that are for younger teens that you could be accused of raping someone even though you didn't if your a male.

Diary 25, 10:00 p.m. I don't know what i have been come. I thought i should just party and it would be fun but instead i get accused of rape. Why did i go to a party with freshman's. I am 18 years old and still a loser. What would my sister think if she was here. That little whore is dumb. She shouldn't be at a party anyways. I don't even understand why I write in a diary. This crap is for females and this isn't helping me letting out things. Every time i look open the diary and skim throught the pages to get to a blank page it reminds me of what I want to forget. I only write in here to talk about my life and what i hate about it. This is a waste of time.

Letter Dear Sissy, I know you probely won't read this of course but my counsler said it could help me. I guess i drink alittle more then i should. Okay, well i drink alot more then anyone should but i don't know how to stop. Every time i drink all of my problems suddenly disappears. Then, for some reason there is just one problem that comes out more and doesn't ever seemed to go away. I don't want to forget about you i just want to not think of what happen. I don't want to keep seeing the images in my head of that day. I want to see images of you and me playing around. I want to see feel you hugging me in your arms and hear you humming that sound when our parents got into a fight. I kind of forgot what tune you were humming to me. I wish i could go back into time and erased what had happen so you can be here with me. So, i could of actually had someone pushed me to go to college and treat women right. I wish sometimes that i was just dead so i could be where you are right now. There is nothing on this earth for me. I am 23 years old who lives in his parents basement and is an alcholic. I wish things were different for me right now and i feel like its to late to make things right.